Posted by Krystyna Hunt in
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I spent the summer calculating my finances over and over again. My entire wealth amounted to $800. Yeah, right, really. At 63 this is what it comes to. I could only do this if I could get the necessary government loans, and just keep applying for grants and bursaries.
This was stress but a different kind of stress. Waking up each day wondering when I would get a job again was hell because beyond some simple acts like looking for jobs, applying for jobs, keeping up with contacts there was nothing more I could do. I could do everything needed to do, everything I could do and it would not guarantee me employment.
Going to college was stress where progress was possible. If I did certain things, other things would happen, I would move along. If I applied for the government loan I would get it. If I applied for the grants and bursaries and I was qualified, I would get them. If I studied and passed my tests I would get my diploma. It was stressful but the stress would get me somewhere.
So I plugged ahead.
This was stress but a different kind of stress. Waking up each day wondering when I would get a job again was hell because beyond some simple acts like looking for jobs, applying for jobs, keeping up with contacts there was nothing more I could do. I could do everything needed to do, everything I could do and it would not guarantee me employment.
Going to college was stress where progress was possible. If I did certain things, other things would happen, I would move along. If I applied for the government loan I would get it. If I applied for the grants and bursaries and I was qualified, I would get them. If I studied and passed my tests I would get my diploma. It was stressful but the stress would get me somewhere.
So I plugged ahead.
